Dance niche

 

It is 03 September 2022, the last time I posted on my blog was in 2020.

My goodness, it feels like I have lived a whole life since then. I have had writer’s block for quite a while too but while messaging a friend today, a fellow dancer, I finally found the words for this dance season of my life.

I named it dance niche because niche means a comfortable or suitable position in life or employment.

For so long I felt like I wasn’t a proper ballerina if I wasn’t having regular class, working strictly on technique and working towards my teachers qualification.

But I have never felt more fulfilled dancing after work, in the quiet of a hall, once a week with myself and an online class.

I have missed those classes in my holidays but I haven’t put pressure on myself to do classes at home. I have still danced spontaneously, every so often, for a few seconds. 

I’m finding dance my way and I’m not jealous of anyone, I’m not sad it’s not a certain way and because there’s no pressure on myself, I do it and it’s in my life consistently.

I struggled for so many years to fit dance into my life and to feel like I belonged and that I was serious about what I do. I put my dancing aside in some of my bleakest moments but the spontaneous dancing, usually in the kitchen, never stopped.

It’s the most fulfilled and happy I have been in my dancing for a long time.